Disappointment and waiting

So I've had a whirlwind last three weeks. On May 14th I was informed that on May 15th Kazakhstan is putting all adoptions on hold so that Kazakhstan can join the Hague Convention. That's a really positive move, however, it affects so many of us waiting to adopt from there. I was devastated...I didn't know what to do or think...I've already invested so much time, energy and a lot of money. It was a rough weekend!

The following week on about May 18 I was informed that it looked like Kazakhstan would re-open adoptions in September. I could wait until September and see if that really happens or I could investigate other programs. I was more confused now -- do I wait and trust that in September adoptions will re-open or do I switch programs and basically start over.

Then on May 20 I received an email from my caseworker that they have decided to accept some more dossiers and process them for Kazakhstan and if I could get my medical done then mine could be included. That weekend involved much driving to and fro in Chicago, notaries, paperwork and stress! I did everything I needed to do, fed ex the info and then re-routed it later that day to get to the Embassy in DC. It successfully arrived on Tuesday, May 25 and I was relieved! I made it.

Then on June 1 my world crashed again --the embassy changed their mind and decided they wouldn't accept more dossiers...mine was being returned. So now I get to make the decision of whether to wait or change programs...so far I've decided to wait to actually make that decision. I have to trust God and that He has a plan. So I'm trying to be patient and hope that all will work out for the best.

It is an agonizing wait and seems so crazy...I want to call up the "manager" and complain until I get my way but adoption does not work that way!

So, I'll try to blog and share any news I have but right now I'm just watching the days pass by....however, I know I have a daughter out there and I pray daily for her happiness and health and that we will meet soon!